I’m a 38-year-old female currently diagnosed with Stage IV Breast Cancer. I have extensive bone mets throughout my torso and numerous inoperable micro deposits of cancer in the back of my brain. I was just starting my life after completing my Master’s Degree when I was diagnosed with cancer January 2, 2015. After spending 4 months in the hospital at the beginning of 2105, I had to make some hard life decisions and opted to move closer to my family so they can help me with my day-to-day living when needed and I can spend as much time with them while I’m still here. I now live in small town Alberta, Canada and it’s taken quite a bit of an effort adapting to small town life after living in a city for the past 10+ years.
While I was in the hospital, I was strongly encouraged to try journaling about my feelings so that I could get them out. Growing up I was never much for writing in a diary or putting my feelings down on paper but for some reason after the new year I felt a compulsive need to write. I needed to look at some of the feelings and emotions I was having now compared to everything that happened last year when I was diagnosed. I want to be open and honest with myself about my disease and everything I’m feeling. I’m a very private person that shies away from social media and sharing anything too personal online with anyone other than my closest friends. Writing and posting this blog is a huge undertaking for me because I’m putting so much of myself and my emotions into it but I felt that by making it public it would help my family and friends see what I’m going through in my daily life when I’m too tired, too physically exhausted, and too emotional drained to get the words out any other way.
I want to thank you for taking the time to read my blog. My life has been changed and as much as having cancer and dealing with it is not how I imagined spending the rest of my life, I do feel that in the end it has made me a better person. It has changed my perspective on life and how I should go about living it.
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